Old Guilts

I.m going to write this for you young moms that may need a bit of advice. Guilt is a nasty thing and can follow you for the rest of your life. While raising my kids, I made many mistakes. Because I married so young, and had kids so early in the marriage, I didnt get a chance to experience my teen years. I didnt get to go to dances and proms. When I got the chance, I went out with my hubby and we spent money that should have gone to the kids, for clothes, food, toys, school needs. Instead my kids went with out alot of the things they needed. I didnt see...I only knew that if I wanted to be with my Husband, the bars were the way to do that. Dont get me wrong, I loved my kids very much. I didnt realize how I was hurting them, until they got older. My life growing up with my parents was the same way. It was what I knew. You may ask why I am taking all the blame for this? Because I gave birth to them. I was the mom. I should have tried harder. I should have went without, to see that they had what they needed. They occasionally remind me of my errors and the pain is excruciating. The guilt is a burden I will carry to my grave. Those of you that are raising children, treasure them with all your heart. Protect them, and give them what the need. Hug them and listen to them and maybe someday...you wont feel the overwelming guilt for days gone by. You cant ever go back and repair it. Do it all now...Late ta