yah Im a bit scared

This blog isn't about Halloween, its about my surgery on Wednesday. I am a bit afraid because of my age. I don't like to be put under and lose control of my faculty's. Your then in the hands of a more or less stranger...Oh Ive met the surgeon, and really like him but....Hes still a stranger for the most part. Because I feel fine, and have no issues to speak of, I hate to go under the knife. Well, I don't really think its a knife per say...They,[ the drs.] have found some issues on a ct scan so they feel they MUST go in and check it out...So...Im not sleeping well wondering what they will find or do when they get in there. Okay, so they won't actually be in there! In MY mind they are. In there walking around, shoving and moving parts and cutting with a huge knife. Like a Samori sword! I can see them throwing out parts like leftovers of a meal...Drama queen? Yah I guess your right...But I would sure like to skirt right past Wednesday right now....Late ta

Happiness

I had a great day yesterday...Two of my grandsons came over for pizza and the Packer game. They brought their new girlfriends to meet us. The girls are very nice, and the guys seem happy. Thats all a gramma really wants for them. It was great hearing young happy voices, bounce off the walls once more. The Packers won the game so that was also a good thing....
Its kinda warm out this am, and because it could very well be the last one, off we go to play a round of golf. I made a birdie last friday, so hopefully I can do well today.
Their talking high winds tomorrow. Whats up with that? I really dont want to have branches all over the lawn again. NO! Im done out there! Im ready for baking bread smells filling the rooms, for warm cuddly blankets, and slippers on our feet. I DO think I remember though....last year, branches being buried under the first snow....Phooey! Thats the first thing you see when the snow melts in the spring....Not to worry though....it all works itself out in the end....late ta

Say what?

Its been an unusual month for me.Some ups and some downs, but I find my way eventually. First of all, I will need surgery the third of November. Female issues I wont go into here. Hopefully just a small repair will do it...The running back and forth to the clinic is the poopy part. You know, test, tests, and more tests...The weather has been great for getting the yard work done. Theres still many leaves to be dealt with, but I wont obsess about them this year. Say what?
I made the mistake of taking an herbal sleep aid I found on Facebook, and it did me in. I spent three days in a funk to beat all funks. Finally, I figured out that it was the pills, and not my life doing me in.. We really must be careful what we ingest, without knowing what it can do to us.

Do you ever feel like your wasting your creative juices? Do you know theres something more for you to do with your life? Do you ever reach for something, but fear holds you back? How do you get brave enough to just go for it? To stop making excuses to not go for it? Ive pretty much been locked into the uncomplicated life I live, when I really want so much more....I find I get all excited about something, and then let it fall by the wayside..Time is going by so fast, and I really want to make it count...Late ta

A new beginning

Sometimes in a persons life, comes a detour. You cannot continue on the road ahead. You have to take a new direction, for your own sake. Its hard to change the way...But change it you must.
Loneliness is a hard thing to take. You feel the need to reach out and hold something dear. That something does not feel the same way as you, so you have to let it go...Out there somewhere is something to fulfill your needs. Open up your mind to that new place, and reach for it with a happy heart. You dont need your life full of young things, that dont have the need to be there. You dont need the attention of those that have their own needs and lives. Somewhere there is a challenge, a thing that excites your mind. and fills your soul. One life is probably all you get. Dont waste it hurting in your heart for things that will not be...Search for something that CAN be.. I begin my search today...Late ta

Winter Blues already?

It seems when it gets dark earlier and the weather gets colder...so does my soul. I get in a crappy mood and can't figure out the reason. Whats up with not wanting to go shopping with a friend, or out to lunch? Whats up with not caring if my undies lay on the bathroom floor longer then they should? Who cares if I forgot the reason I so badly wanted to lose 10 pounds, and keep that BP down? Who cares if those sweet birdies I love so much, are begging for food at my dining room window, because Im too lazy to go out and feed them? When did the couch get more inviting, and the refrigerator look like a fast food restaurant? Who cares if the grocery cart is starting to fill with cookies and cakes again, instead of vegetables and fruit? I CARE, THATS WHO! I refuse to let a funk get to me, and ruin all my good intentions...I will keep going in the right direction, and find a reason to be happy and jovial again...It could be all the rotten ads on tv that are getting to me, so OFF goes the set! Up on my feet and getting my arse in gear again. I refuse to be a sponge that absorbs all the negativity in the world! Lets all do our best to bring some light into the day. For ourselves and for the others in our lives....Late ta....